i'm not good enough

This is the first time i'm writing blog in english,the simple reason is that my english command has been suspected tens times whether to have come up to a law student's standard.It is undeniable that merely by taking the LLB course required good command of english in order to ease unnecessary burdens.The point is that judges who are classified as repected men,living in Ivory tower,would likely to present themselves well in the sense of writing lengthy and techinical judgments.Only in judgments,they found their pride is being taken care of,so,as lawyers and law students,we are compulsory to analyse the judgments from every single words to pages and to pieces up to hundreds.Ghosh,sometimes really feel might as well to burn it.

I admit it that i'm not good in verbally,not fluently,or rather say bad.I realised it,i knew it,i'm embarrased of it sometimes.However,it doesnt defeat my determination to study law.I love to argue (eventhough normally in class i always keep quiet),i love to stuy law!So far,with my limited command of english language,i'm able to understand the law although i need to read more times than others.As far as syllbus is concerned,i face no serious problem to present my arguements as well,all that are worded in english.

With a good command of english does help,but it only helps to make good on the face of paper,it does not represent strong identity in substance.By fashioning weak arguements to strong one with good english command cannot stand long in this field,in the end of the day,what others looking at is whether do you have strong stands and do u believe in what you are writing,do you believe in what you are presenting or rather say arguing.Confidence is what a lawyer should have,simply because customers will believe in you only when u believe in yourself in the first place.

I alway believe that by looking into your loved one's eyes,there is a reflection of yourself,it's important for me to check and balance myself.Now,i know that in NiuNiu's eyes,i'm no longer the one i used to be or rather say supposed to be.I may not be a good boyfriend as compared to your exboyfriend,i may not be like him willingly to learn everywhere and from anyone to improve english language.Indeed,i know that u meant not to compare me to him but i'm a human being who longing love,longing care...

In my life,i have gone through many obstacles,but i rely on no one but myself,all by myself....
i'm from Sibu where may be to some people,considering it as a small town which in fact it is,i did not bother my parents' objections,i chose KL as my destiny,law as the beginning,regardless how difficult it is,how depressed i have been,i want to tell you this,although i might not be good as anyone out there,i'm here,in fact i'm going to tell you that i know what am i doing,why am i studying law,where i'm beloging to,how am i going through my life in which i'll survive in irrespect of any fucking damn shit things out there.

I'm here,i fell down before,i stood up again,i'm standing still right here and this is the truth,the proof that i may not be the best man but i'll be a better man day to day!